August 30, 2005

who am i?

Beethoven’s 7th (not sure which part)

It’s time to be honest with myself and with you, if you are in fact out there, dear readers. I don’t know who I am. I know my name is Adam, and I know I’m a child of God, but what does that mean? That means, in sum, that I’m guaranteed a spot in Heaven upon my death or the end of the world, whichever happens first. That’s good and all, but in the mean time, what am I going to do? What do I do with this time I have on Earth, limited or lengthy as it may turn out to be?

That’s a good question. Before I figure that one out, however, I’ve got to figure out what my values are, what I really believe in, and what my goals are. And, if I don’t particularly like where they are, I’ve got to change them. Easier said than done, I know, but it’s still something to strive for; bettering oneself.

So, let’s begin the discovery. Who am I, what do I believe, what are my values, and what are my goals? Let’s find out, shall we? Now is the best time to begin.

Lord, I pray that over the next…however long it takes, that You will guide me through the struggles and trials that will come. It is my prayer to find myself and discover who I really am, but before I do that, I know that I need You. I pray that You would give me the strength to drop at Your feet, all the foolish worldly desires that I carry with me daily. I pray for the wisdom to discern between what’s glorifying to You, and what draws me away from You; from that which is truly important, and that which can be left alone. I pray that You would also provide me the strength to not just know the difference between these things, but act righteously on that wisdom. Without You, Father, I do all things in vain. These things I leave in Your perfect hands, Father, and in Your perfect timing. Thank you, Father.