Popcorn Kernels
originally typed this up on December 20th (2005), saved it as a draft and just remembered i had it.
No music; actually the TV is on. I'm watching CSI. I've never written (typed) an entry while watching TV. I hope i don't make a habit of it. It goes without saying that i'll only be typing while the commercials are on, but it doesn't make a difference to you does it? You wouldn't even know if i hadn't said anything. But i'm here to be honest, right? Yes...yes i am.
For lunch at work today, i had an apple (Courtland), a banana (are there different varieties of bananas?), and popcorn (Big Y, butter). I felt i needed a healthy lunch since the last week or so has been practically nothing but takeout, frozen, or snack food (the bad stuff). I realize that microwave popcorn isn't exactly "healthy", but it's better than a lot of the stuff i've been eating, including tonight's dinner. Tonight it's more that i ate too much than it is the quality of the food. But anyways...
After lunch, as i returned to my previous work, i found a kernel in my teeth. You know, the kind that get down into your gums and somehow resist every attempt at removal. Wiggling it back and forth just tires your tongue, and trying to pry it out is just as pointless. After several unsuccessful attempts, you can't help but play with it. Your tongue keeps moving around this little corn shell. (From this point on, all material is from January 2 [2006]) It's obvious that you're not going to rid yourself of this irritating oral occupant, yet your tongue returns to it over and over. If you just left it alone, you'd no longer be constantly aware of it, and it would eventually work its way out.
And i thought that's kind of like life's problems. The more you try to work them out through your own control, the harder they become and consequently the more irritating. Granted there is some work that must be done on your part, but there's also some patient waiting for some things to work themselves out. Just let the kernel work itself to a point where you can take over. But until then, be patient.
This all sounded much better in my head. Now that i see all that i have typed out, i don't like it as much. But that's okay. I'm leaving it for you anyways.
I'm listening to my "Quiet Songs" playlist on my iPod. Right now the sweet sound of Sarah McLachlan's voice is singing her song "Angel".
So i hung out with Jaime last night. I hadn't talked with her for a couple weeks, so it was nice to see her. We watched Lemony Snicket's A Series Of Unfortunate Events (again, a title too long to say and type), and Spielberg's War Of The Worlds. I didn't really care what we watched, to be honest. It was just nice to spend time with her, lightly cuddling (as opposed to the heavy stuff: spooning and all that). The conversation was comfortable, as it usually is with her. We laugh a lot together too; i really like that. Be careful, Adam. Be very careful.
There are things that i want, and there are things that must be. I pray for God to guide me through deciphering the difference between each.
I'm being vague on purpose.
Sigh.
No music; actually the TV is on. I'm watching CSI. I've never written (typed) an entry while watching TV. I hope i don't make a habit of it. It goes without saying that i'll only be typing while the commercials are on, but it doesn't make a difference to you does it? You wouldn't even know if i hadn't said anything. But i'm here to be honest, right? Yes...yes i am.
For lunch at work today, i had an apple (Courtland), a banana (are there different varieties of bananas?), and popcorn (Big Y, butter). I felt i needed a healthy lunch since the last week or so has been practically nothing but takeout, frozen, or snack food (the bad stuff). I realize that microwave popcorn isn't exactly "healthy", but it's better than a lot of the stuff i've been eating, including tonight's dinner. Tonight it's more that i ate too much than it is the quality of the food. But anyways...
After lunch, as i returned to my previous work, i found a kernel in my teeth. You know, the kind that get down into your gums and somehow resist every attempt at removal. Wiggling it back and forth just tires your tongue, and trying to pry it out is just as pointless. After several unsuccessful attempts, you can't help but play with it. Your tongue keeps moving around this little corn shell. (From this point on, all material is from January 2 [2006]) It's obvious that you're not going to rid yourself of this irritating oral occupant, yet your tongue returns to it over and over. If you just left it alone, you'd no longer be constantly aware of it, and it would eventually work its way out.
And i thought that's kind of like life's problems. The more you try to work them out through your own control, the harder they become and consequently the more irritating. Granted there is some work that must be done on your part, but there's also some patient waiting for some things to work themselves out. Just let the kernel work itself to a point where you can take over. But until then, be patient.
This all sounded much better in my head. Now that i see all that i have typed out, i don't like it as much. But that's okay. I'm leaving it for you anyways.
I'm listening to my "Quiet Songs" playlist on my iPod. Right now the sweet sound of Sarah McLachlan's voice is singing her song "Angel".
So i hung out with Jaime last night. I hadn't talked with her for a couple weeks, so it was nice to see her. We watched Lemony Snicket's A Series Of Unfortunate Events (again, a title too long to say and type), and Spielberg's War Of The Worlds. I didn't really care what we watched, to be honest. It was just nice to spend time with her, lightly cuddling (as opposed to the heavy stuff: spooning and all that). The conversation was comfortable, as it usually is with her. We laugh a lot together too; i really like that. Be careful, Adam. Be very careful.
There are things that i want, and there are things that must be. I pray for God to guide me through deciphering the difference between each.
I'm being vague on purpose.
Sigh.
posted by Still Daddy at 10:17 PM
2 Comments:
Once again, I really love reading your blog. I like the whole popcorn kernel comparison. Definitely.
You're awesome.
formerly tickled~pink...
i miss you
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